love sick and love drunk
if there is one thing i find stupid about us being a person is emotion. it’s a part of us that we don’t want much of but can live without. we play around with it but we fear it, we let it sink in and we close our selves to it, feeling is a bitch.
it takes us high at the same time gives us a hangover. sometimes we want to forget and sometimes we want to remember. we say we just have to be like this, but you know there’s something more.
we sometimes wait for someone we like, only to make our feelings worse, our minds flash thousands of pictures, fictional dreams, soundtrack of the latest and oldest teenage, indie, pop, rock love songs.
we tell ourselves that it’s better to keep distance and not to be attached. don’t let emotions in and eat you up. but the more we do the less of happiness we feel inside. we form a mask, hiding deep and true feelings, we bottle it all up till we panic and our hearts are flooded with emotions and it overrides our brain and we can’t think straight and causes us to make a bold act, only to realize we’re embarassing ourselves.
ultimately there’s no cure for what we feel, especially the one they call love. one way or another we have to let these things out of our system, purge all the thoughts, love songs, day dreams you’ve conjured up in your head and hope you turn out ok.
confused ? don’t know what the hell im talking about ? find someone you genuinely like and befriend her/him get close and personal, then swear to yourself that you only want to be friends. then maybe you’ll get a picture.
